obsession

I have a problem with thinking about my future, and it is absolutely driving me insane. I want to be thousands of things, and nothing at all at the same time. I'm listening to the last lecture right now and sometimes I just wish I had a realization of how little time we have like Randy P. does... he gets it, he got it. That's all I want.

i'm so upset with so many things right now
and it's nothing that I can change! nothing at all
i had a mental breakdown in the middle of vw's campus and just cried and cried and cried to chris in front of hundreds of people that just walked by and looked at me and probably thought this girl is crazy for crying so hard in a public place? but it didn't even matter! i would never do that ever, EVER but for some reason it was the right place and it was the right time to break down... BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE BROKEN DOWN!!! that's the thing i'm so caught up in the dark parts of my life i'm not even taking time to see the light

I have a job, well not only one job, i have three! THREE JOBS!! in this economy I am very lucky, very very very lucky. but these three jobs are dragging me under. I am emotionally and physically exhausted... I have absolutely no time for myself, I feel like I barely have time to breath... It's frustrating to say the least.

got so off topic, but this is my blog so it' doesn't really matter...
I don't know what to do with my life
what should I go and study? I want to study everything!
i'm finally becoming a student, i want my mind challenged
and virginia western is not doing the job
that school is for drop outs and people who have no potential. no offense
who am I kidding, that was so offensive, but whatever it's my opinion you're entitled to your own as well...


i'm just exhausted, i'm so exhausted

exhaustion

so tired

i'm always tired

i hate that

V-Day

Who wants to be my valentineee?!

Hair Cut

I like it, it's pretty G :], siiike it's just new and fun and i'm excited for it. I wish I could get it to look like the people at the salon did when I first got it cut. I hate that you can never get it to look that good ever agaaaain!

it's been awhile
and my life is something different
not a good different and not a bad one either
i'm just having various thoughts and feelings changed towards different aspects of my life

oh where to go to school next semester