new life

Ok so maybe I will actually write something...

I currently have a little american bulldog puppy laying across my lap and the cutest shitzupoodle curled up next to me. Lilli is the pup and she belongs to Melissa and Abbi is the shitpoo (haha!) and she belongs to Jeni. They are off doing great things for the WVball team for missouri state so I become nanny J and watch them... Lilli is my little baby because well I was there for her almost death and now she is huge and amazing and crazy!

I now attend Missouri State University in Springfield, Missouri and I am really enjoying it!

I wish I had my friends from roanoke and greenville here with me... but I can't complain, I have my midwest loves here <3

School is going well, I'm still majoring in Fashion merchandising and i'm really excited because I think i've finally figured out what I really want to do in the field...

PRODUCT DEVELOPMENT WOOO!

it's basically fashion design without the drawing and sewing... so yeah

the program here is really good, the professors are extremely willing to help with everything, I love it...

I miss home a lot, i mean a ton... I probably choke up at least once a day when I think about home ugh I wish my family was closer to me!!

I need a haircut really badly...i'm just way too lazy to make an appointment I need to do it!!!!

I have a new number now it's a 417 number... which is weird I miss my 540 :[

but i love my little blackberry <3>

swine flu is everywhere out here

and boys wear good jeans, which is amazing!

i live in the midwest now so I can wear a cute hats that look cowgirlish!!!!!!

moving on

i live in missouri now

whaaat?!

incredible friends

couldn't ask for more <3

update on my life

in a condensed version!

I recieved a phone call from a 703 number the other day and my first reaction was who in the hell could this be? and then I thought to myself oh my lord! it's Marymount University calling me!! So I answered it sounding as proffesional as I could... whatever that means and the woman on the other line, Marie, started talking about the fashion merchandising programs committee met today to discuss the final applicants for entrance into their program, so i'm freaking out trying to keep it cool thinking ahhh I didn't make it :[ and then she said.... "Congratulations on your acceptance into Marymount university's fashion merchandisingp program!" I then preceeded to squeal like a little girl and gave many thanks and asked a few questions...

So as of right now i'm pretty positive I am going to be living in Arlington next fall and attending Marymount... i'm excited I really am, but I can't help but think should I be out in LA?? 

ugh still so many questions and now so many scholarships to fill out, MU please give me money.

part 2. I nannied the  5 kids i nanny every week for the whole entire weekend starting at 8:30 friday until today at 4... It's been alright it went by pretty fast, i'm so exhausted though I don't know how moms do this every single day of their motherly lives! Mothers day they should get diamonds and pearls and homemade cards.

Sophomore year is officially over Wednesday, how exciting is that?

Then summer, I better get lots of lake time in, lots and lots

I need to lose winter weight and fast

ughhhh

alright back to paying attention to the kids and their obsession with Noggin. 

update

so i have 5 kids for the weekend.

so i'm never having children.

fo eva

it's been awhile

my minds exploding with the chaos that is the end of this semester

where the fuck do i go in the fall?!

ohh i think they like me

i guess 2nd times a charm?!

I got accepted to George Mason for fall 2009!
excited because I now have at least one school I will be able to go to in the fall other than god forsaken virginia western (which is over in a month, thank the lord)

oh and some more exciting news, i got two biofits and "the perfect one" from victoria secret today
loooove it haha

<3

:?

to good to be true.

is my life.

this picture exemplifies how i would like to feel every second of the day

need a name

So I need to name my new car. I got a 2000 volvo s80, it's silver with light gray interior and it's just cute as a button. She needs a name, so help me!
i'll put up pictures soon

raquelita

So I saw raquel today in the mall (and anna and mandy). It was really good seeing her (and them) and we got some sweet coupons from an extremely annoying old man working for old navy. While in there raquel told me to stop writing depressing blogs, and anna called me emo so here are the positive things going on in my life.

• I went to the gym today, yes it was a huge accomplishment ;]



• I have an amazing friend here in roanoke which without I would probably die. little christopher is my key to happiness and i can't wait till we are living in the city and buying each other 400,000 dollar christmas presents and owning islands.



• I live in an amazing house, rent free and I really can't complain at all about that



• there are only 7 more weeks of virginia western!!



• I got a lower grade on a paper because my writing style was too advanced, I mean craziest thing i've ever heard, but it really proves that I am better than that school



• I'm getting a new car because mine blew up, and my new car will hopefully be a volvo s80, holla



• it's getting warmer outside which all in all is just making me way too excited :]

so raquel, here you go this ones for you boo, nice an happy!!!

oh, and another thing to add on the list.. i have two beautiful boys who are wonderful makeup artists doing artwork on my face like every day, it's the shit really

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obsession

I have a problem with thinking about my future, and it is absolutely driving me insane. I want to be thousands of things, and nothing at all at the same time. I'm listening to the last lecture right now and sometimes I just wish I had a realization of how little time we have like Randy P. does... he gets it, he got it. That's all I want.

i'm so upset with so many things right now
and it's nothing that I can change! nothing at all
i had a mental breakdown in the middle of vw's campus and just cried and cried and cried to chris in front of hundreds of people that just walked by and looked at me and probably thought this girl is crazy for crying so hard in a public place? but it didn't even matter! i would never do that ever, EVER but for some reason it was the right place and it was the right time to break down... BUT I DON'T WANT TO BE BROKEN DOWN!!! that's the thing i'm so caught up in the dark parts of my life i'm not even taking time to see the light

I have a job, well not only one job, i have three! THREE JOBS!! in this economy I am very lucky, very very very lucky. but these three jobs are dragging me under. I am emotionally and physically exhausted... I have absolutely no time for myself, I feel like I barely have time to breath... It's frustrating to say the least.

got so off topic, but this is my blog so it' doesn't really matter...
I don't know what to do with my life
what should I go and study? I want to study everything!
i'm finally becoming a student, i want my mind challenged
and virginia western is not doing the job
that school is for drop outs and people who have no potential. no offense
who am I kidding, that was so offensive, but whatever it's my opinion you're entitled to your own as well...


i'm just exhausted, i'm so exhausted

exhaustion

so tired

i'm always tired

i hate that

V-Day

Who wants to be my valentineee?!

Hair Cut

I like it, it's pretty G :], siiike it's just new and fun and i'm excited for it. I wish I could get it to look like the people at the salon did when I first got it cut. I hate that you can never get it to look that good ever agaaaain!

it's been awhile
and my life is something different
not a good different and not a bad one either
i'm just having various thoughts and feelings changed towards different aspects of my life

oh where to go to school next semester

ahh

I don't want love, there is always disapointment at the end and who really needs that in life. Especially right now.

I walk the line like Johnny Cash.

I'm obsessed with this song by plushgun, it's way too much fun :]


ah today was the first day of good ole VWCC... it was absolutely the most horrible thing i've ever endured. I feel like i'm in high school again but with really incompetent people... get me back to a real school and quiiiick!

this semester is going to go on for forever

at least there are a few decent people there!!

ughh. so busy. so tired :/

sorted

I need to re-organize my life, set my priorities straight... If I can't do that what is the point?

I seriously have come to the realization that I have years of things to learn in order to really make my life something worth living... There is so much that I want out of it and it seems like there really is not enough time for it.

Goals:
Vogue Fashion Photographer
Cosmopolitan Column Writer
Create my own department store
Start my own line
Work with poor children all over the world
Give hopeful, willing girls/boys a chance in the big world [let them achieve what they really want to]
become a loving mother
have an incredibly strong family

so many more...
I know you see the first few and you're like yeah yeah every girl wants that and it doesn't happen, well i'm not every girl...

i'm more optomistic then I deserve to be, but someone told me a few days ago "your photos are not good enough to get into VCU with" and that right there is making me push as hard as I can to prove them completely wrong

I can't wait till the day you open a significant publication and you see my name under photographer.

I need a break

from reality.

I want to feel like this for a good long while...

exemplify

Ah the word exemplify, in all reality I thought it was a pretty easy and common word in the English language. OBVIOUSLY NOT.

I had a woman come up to me at work and use this sentence...
"I sure don't want to not give him an exemplify"

First off, she used a double negative which drives me insane.
Next, the woman standing next to her just shook her head and said "oh hell yes honey, he ain't gonna want no exemplifying"

I was absolutely puzzled by what the hell they were talking about so I had to ask...
"what's an exemplify exactly"

"well sweet cheeks, it's when you find your mans done cheat on you and you go and kick him square in the balls"

really? because I though "exemplify" meant to give an example of something...



the english language is over as we know it

So... Happy New Years!!

So around 7 in the evening I had nothing to do for New Years and I was calling around to see what was going on and ashley invited me to go to the Flynns with her!

I showed up extremely unexpected by everyone and raquelita greeted me with the best schpeeel ever... "JENNA! what are you doing here?!... anyways i'm now single and I woke up this morning and stared at my ceiling for two hours and then I just thought to myself what am I doing?! I need to look pretty tonight so here I am, looking very pretty for tonight!"

of course Mrs.Flynn had amazing food and tons of it, so I ate and had champunch and met lots of new great peopleeee

It was a fantastic evening to say the least!!!